Wednesday, June 29, 2016

Emancipation or "Going Green" with Shakespeare, Lincoln, and Nancy Hanks



            “The wise men always return to the soil,” wrote Henry Miller in an essay on Thoreau, published in the 1962 collection Stand Still Like the Hummingbird.  One only has to think of the poets, sages, artists in every land and in every generation to realize how deep this need is in every man.  What Miller observed fifty years ago is still largely true of America today:  It is a vastly unpopulated country.  Having made my annual pilgrimage to the Pine Barrens of South Jersey and, thanks to an adventurous husband, continued south through Delaware and rural Maryland to the islands of Chincoteague and Assateague and home along byways that wend round the hills and hollows of West Virginia, I share Miller’s vision of America as a land abounding in forests, streams, lakes, mountains, rivers, and fields—“where a man of good-will with a little effort and belief in his own powers can enjoy a deep, tranquil, rich life—provided he go his own way.” 
            To reconnect to the spirits of hard scrabble ancestors is why I return every summer to the Pine Barrens, preferably during blueberry season.  Since before the Revolutionary war, they smuggled goods off British sloops and transported them through the woods to Philadelphia.  Some dug bog ore out of the swamps for the iron furnaces that manufactured cannonballs for the war effort; some were pioneers in the glass-making industry; others raised cranberries and when they got the blight experimented with cultivated blueberries bred from wild stock.  There was a line of watermen who built boats, harvested salt hay in the marshes along the Mullica, dug clams; and their sons operated tug boats and built piers in Atlantic City.  They knew the environment intimately, worked with what was available, and stuck together.  When I was growing up, my mother took me and my siblings “home” four or five times a year, and I envied that extended family life lived up and down Pleasant Mills Road: a farm, a sawmill, a one-room school teacher, a railroad engineer, an alcoholic storyteller.  Everyone had a role.  Everyone had value.  It was clear to me when I was very young that life is best lived in a network of symbiotic relationships, and I grew up envying my mother’s life and memorizing her stories. 




            But every woman must go her own way.  I learned this lesson when I tried to copy my mother’s life, volunteering at the age of 12 to spend the summer packing blueberries for my uncle (a job that migrants have done for the last sixty years).  Up before dawn and still working after dark, I felt dejected and lonely.  The life of a farm girl was too hard for a spoiled, bookish subdivision girl.  I became an academic, but one who works hard in her own field, turning over and over Shakespeare’s blank verse, tending the seeds of my ideas, and gleaning the insights that other scholars have unearthed.  I do believe there is a profound connection between farming land and farming ideas (especially in relation to Shakespeare) that is quintessentially American.  This thought received surprising support by the end of our family trip.

            The last leg of our June journey (after Jersey and the wild ponies at Chincoteague) was to be an abbreviated version of the eighth grade field trip to Washington D.C. for our fourteen-year-old daughter who is aggressively disinterested in anything remotely interesting to us.  “I just want to go home,” she’d whine and flat out refuse to visit museums or see monuments.  Modifying selfies is an activity she prefers to watching egrets, hummingbirds, or ponies let alone taking pictures of the stone effigies of Lincoln or Jefferson.  “Kat, check out the view,” says my husband driving the Chesapeake Bay bridge.  “I AM LOOKING,” she states angrily. 

            Somehow we make it into D.C., drive around the Supreme Court, find a very tight parking spot on Capitol Hill, and drag her into the Folger Shakespeare Library.  “Let’s just see what they have on exhibit; it won’t take long,” I cajole.  Katya is relatively knowledgeable about Shakespeare, having played Hamlette in a school adaptation, and she resigns herself to putting up with another “boring” museum.

            The exhibit, America’s Shakespeare, is an eclectic display—something for everyone.  Most fascinating to me were the ways early Americans (from the colonial period through the Civil War) alluded to Shakespeare to express political views:  “To taxt or not to taxt,” read the headline in a colonial newspaper.  A British political cartoon presents the rebellious colonists as the rabble-rousers, led by Jack Cade, in Henry VI, Part 2.



            Even more fascinating were the ways that Shakespeare was used during Lincoln’s presidency by Lincoln, himself, by John Wilkes Booth, and by the grieving nation.  I had known of Lincoln’s particular interest in Macbeth, and, I had taped an advertisement for  Michael Anderegg’s new book, Lincoln and Shakespeare, to my refrigerator so as not to forget about it.  Lincoln was prone to depression and his wife, particularly after the deaths of several children, believed (like many “Spiritualists” of the time) that it was possible to make contact with the dead.  Many facets of Lincoln’s life predisposed him to connect with the play.  One week prior to his assassination at Ford’s Theater, Lincoln had a disturbing premonitory dream that “has got possession of me, and, like Banquo’s ghost, it will not down.”  Scholars cite this dream as proof that Lincoln identified with Macbeth, but they disagree in their readings of his identification.  Some believe Lincoln like Macbeth was ambitious.  Most suggest that Lincoln felt the blood of civil war deaths sticking to his own hands.  My guess is that Lincoln identified with the sensitive moral soul of Macbeth, whose first words in the play (coming fresh from a stunning battle victory) are “So foul and fair a day I have not seen.”  Macbeth feels deeply the moral ambiguity of all political action.  After the civil war was over, Lincoln visited Richmond, the devastated capital of the Confederacy.  According to witnesses, his mood oscillated between “hearty  bonhomie and sad introspection” and, on a steamer up the Potomac, he read passages from the play that describe the mental anguish that is an immediate consequence of Macbeth’s murder of Duncan.

                        What hands are here?  Ha: they pluck out mine eyes.
                        Will all great Neptune’s ocean wash this blood
                        Clear from my hand?  No: this my hand will rather
                        The multitudinous seas incarnadine,
                        Making the green one red.

Lincoln may have been ambitious to perform great deeds but Anderegg finds no evidence that he ever believed his ambition was responsible for the carnage, however grieved he was by its extent.  My own work on the play links Macbeth with Israel’s first doomed king, Saul, and suggests that there is something inherently tragic about monarchy and perhaps politics in general (which always makes “the green one red”).  And the tragedy of politics would have been felt acutely by men raised in Nature—men like Saul who would rather push a plow than be king and Lincoln, the frontiersman, who found in Macbeth powerful, imaginative expressions of pain and loss that echoed his own feelings. 

            One of the most stunning pieces of documentation in the Folger exhibit is a newspaper advertisement, printed after Lincoln’s assassination with quotations from Macbeth that would assist the nation in its grief.  Lincoln’s love of Shakespeare was recognized and honored in the imaginative identification of him with the saintly Duncan who, "Hath borne his faculties so meet, hath been / So clear in his great office."



            After leaving the Folger, we dragged Katya through the Library of Congress and headed back to the car after treating her to a Monster energy drink.  We wanted to see the Lincoln Memorial but got pushed by the steady traffic onto a highway that took us over the Potomac and toward Arlington Virginia and posh suburbs of horse farms and fox-hunting courses.  We pressed onward toward West Virginia where things became much poorer almost as soon as we crossed the state line.  We ate pizza in Romney, a small town so crucial during the civil war that it changed hands 56 times.  After dinner, we stood outside a local history museum watching a father and two kids try to catch lightning bugs.  Paul was remembering tidbits relating to John Wilkes Booth.  Apparently, after shooting Lincoln and jumping from the balcony, he yelled “Sic simper tyrannis” (“Thus always to tyrants”).  “You must be kidding!” I said and wondered aloud if Booth imagined himself as Malcolm who gathers an armed force to rid Scotland of Macbeth, who, by the end of the play, has become a brutal tyrant, killing friends, women, and children.  When Shakespeare wrote the play in 1606, pitching it to King James I’s pet interests (in witchcraft and biblical kingship), tyrannicide was a hot topic.  James, a staunch proponent of divine right kingship, believed that no matter how bad a king was, subjects could not challenge him.  But federalist thinkers believed it was the duty of magistrates to remove kings who were not living up to their covenant obligations to God and to their subjects.  By staging an armed resistance to monarchy, Shakespeare (a lowly actor/playwright like Booth) was doing something very risky. 


            Later that night in our hotel suite, while Katya took a whirlpool bath, I skimmed portions of Anderegg’s discussion of John Wilkes Booth’s escape from Washington through the swamps, rivers, and farms of eastern Maryland.  He carried a pocket diary with him in which he recorded his own feelings about his act, likening it to the deed that “Brutus was honored for.”  A bit later, he made another indirect but likely Julius Caesar allusion, writing of what he saw as “a country groaned beneath this tyranny.”  Wilkes Booth was one of three actor brothers, who—believe it or not—acted together only once in a single performance of Julius Caesar at New York’s Winter Garden Theater, a fund-raiser for a Shakespeare statue to be erected in Central Park.

         Shakespeare—an actor and playwright—throughout his career expressed revolutionary political views, but he did so very subtly, challenging the status quo through subtext and allusion.  That Wilkes Booth used Julius Caesar as pretext for a mad political act was nothing new.  The Earl of Essex paid Shakespeare’s company to stage Richard II (a regicide play) on the eve of his attempt to overthrow Queen Elizabeth.  The attempts and not the failed deeds are stunning because they express a faith in the power of art to unsettle and express an other kind of politics.  Wilkes-Booth’s deed insured that actors would be victimized in the search for scapegoats in the days after Lincoln’s death.  A minister in Philadelphia condemned theaters as “dens of pollution, these synagogues of Satan”—language that sounds exactly like that used by anti-theatricalist writers of the early-modern period.  One minister even intimated that Lincoln got what he deserved for going to see a play on Good Friday.

            The real gift of the trip came somewhere in Virginia when I was sitting in the co-pilot seat, studying the map and looking at the zigzag line of Route 50, imagining the road as a series of snake turns through dark mountains.  Just south of highway 50 near a settlement called Antioch was a red square marking the birthplace of Nancy Hanks, Lincoln’s mother.  “We have to check it out, Paul—tomorrow morning.”  The serendipity of events seemed to prove something I read in bright morning light as we drove through the peninsular fingers reaching into the Chesapeake:  “to understand what is real as real, and what is living as living, we have to know it in its own primal and individual community, in its relationships, interconnections and surroundings.”  Perhaps I could learn something about Lincoln’s habits of mind and ways of reading Shakespeare by seeing where his mother was born.  Macbeth asked the witches to look into the seeds of time to see which grains would grow, and that is exactly what I hoped to do—belatedly.
            The morning sun lit up the wet grass as we sped past places with biblical names—Canaan Valley, Pisgah Road, Good News Gospel Church.  The road followed the curve of Saddleback mountain and ran next to a stream.  The birthplace is not well marked but we found it, parked the car, and walked up the gravelly road, ducking under a metal fence to deter cars and protect creatures like the doe and fawn, fresh from a morning drink, walking high on delicate legs and leaping away when they saw us.  The cabin, although not the original birthplace, dates from the early nineteenth century and was moved from another site.  There is only one explanatory placard, and it obscures Nancy Hanks in the verbiage of West Virginia senators, anxious to prove their Union loyalties by writing a paean to motherhood.  Lincoln’s simple statement—that everything he is he owes to his mother—is far more touching.  Nancy Hanks’ family didn’t stay in this one-room cabin for long.  In her day, people bought land cheap, cleared it, sold it for a profit and moved on.  These hard-working nomads moved from what was then Virginia, to Kentucky, and onward to Indiana.



            I look in the window and try to conjure up the legendary image of the self-taught young Abe reading by firelight.  Imagination fails me.  Much has been made of Alexis de Tocqueville’s claim in Democracy in America (a guide to life in the United States in the 1830s) that there was “hardly a pioneer’s hut that does not contain a few odd volumes of Shakespeare.”  But how many log cabins did de Tocqueville visit?  As much as I would love to believe Nancy Hanks introduced her young son to Shakespeare, I don’t see it.
            But I read in Wikipedia that Nancy Hanks Lincoln was “superior” to her husband, a strong personality who taught young Abraham his letters as well as the extraordinary sweetness and forbearance he was known for all his life.  Nancy was also described as “a bold, reckless, daredevil kind of woman, stepping on the very verge of propriety” with a melancholy expression and intellectual inclination.  She sounds fascinating, and Abe lost her when he was nine years old—whittled the pegs for her coffin.  She died homesteading, age 34, at Little Pigeon Creek in southern Indiana.  No one knows for sure what killed her:  milk sickness (drinking milk from cows that had eaten white snakeroot), tuberculosis, or cancer.
            If you read my first post, you will understand that in the last few weeks I have been trying to reclaim my own life, and have found consolation in a circle of female friends.  Some of them are real, but most are biblical, fictional, and historical.  All of them were “ruined” in some way and pushed out to labor in the wilderness.  I am thinking of Hagar, Tess of the d’Urbervilles, and Nancy Hanks.  I have wondered at the intense and original intellects of hardworking rural women—a focus of Thomas Hardy’s novel.  We don’t need books and universities to teach us to think.  All we really need are our senses at play with Nature which, as Emerson wrote, “conspires with spirit to emancipate us.”  When a beautiful rose dies, beauty does not die because it is not in the rose.  Beauty is an awareness in the mind.  It is a mental and emotional response that we make.  Hardy’s narrator describes Tess as being “of a piece with the element she moved in” and “at times her whimsical fancy would intensify natural processes around her till they seemed part of her own story.  Rather they became part of it; for the world is only a psychological phenomenon, and what they seemed they were.”
            Mothers who learned to think and feel by working closely with Nature and with others have a wide vision unobstructed by manmade things and gifts of sensibility that they pass on to their children.  Tess, for instance, has great sympathy for animals—the horse, Prince, who she is partly responsible for killing, the cows she milks, her siblings, and fellow dairy maids, less physically beautiful but with equally passionate hearts.  Tess is immune to contempt and remains open, porous, alive, and responsive.  It is no wonder that my own mother—a Jersey farm girl who milked 7 cows before going to school every day of her life—raved about Tess ever since I can remember.  I finally read her book.

            To lose such a mother is to lose a whole world.  It only makes sense, then, that Lincoln would have found a mother surrogate in Shakespeare’s capacious dramatic worlds.  Shakespeare never lectures, doesn’t dictate.  Rather, he whispers, he hints, he engages, he charms, and finally wins us, through mesmerizing figures, into a deep and dedicated covenantal relationship—one on one—that rewards labor and original thought.  Anderegg thinks that Lincoln preferred reading Shakespeare to seeing the plays staged: I do, too.  Seeing the cabin where Nancy Hanks was born and thinking about Lincoln’s early experiences—it makes sense that he didn’t try to be an expert reader, didn’t strive to read every play but pored over those he loved and, most importantly, needed to live.  “Throughout his life,” writes Anderegg, “Lincoln adapted Shakespeare to his own needs and desires, selecting a speech here or a passage there, fitting the playwright’s works into his own worldview.”  He farmed the verse.  Even if Nancy could not give him Shakespeare, she opened his eyes and mind to the wide world:  emancipating him, she (and Shakespeare) prepared him to emancipate us.
                 

Saturday, June 18, 2016

Who Sees Me



            My mother treats it like it was just an affair with a married man that ended badly as they all do.  “Mary Jo, you are not the first girl to get jilted.”  She has never seen me.  When I was 20 years old, I called her from the darkly lit lobby of a hotel in Athens, Greece.  Men were listening. “Mom,” I hesitated, having just suffered a brutal rape, “I just need to hear your voice.”  She has repeated the story over the years to neighbors and extended family members for laughs, “My daughter … from Athens! … what could I do?”  At 52 having suffered ten years of therapy abuse, I do not try to explain how he was more than just a married man.  I know it was different, and that is enough.  I went to him for help.  He knew all my vulnerabilities.  He had fiduciary responsibilities to me as a patient.  But there was more to it than that.  We read the Bible together.  I told him all my mind.  He called me Ruth, his savior from beyond the tribal pale, and I uncovered his feet.  He pretended to do the duty of spiritual kinsman, telling me that we had a covenant that would be immoral for either of us to break.  When he broke it, I panicked and the world lost its color.



            Was that why in the week after the initial shock I convinced my daughter to go with me to the Flint Art Museum?  “I just want to look at one painting,” I told her, “it won’t take long.”  The painting I wanted to drink from is one of Martin Heade’s salt marsh pictures.  I needed to imbibe stillness.  But I also needed tangible frames around reality, perhaps because I had been too open, too porous.  Katya and I wandered from painting to painting, from scene to scene.  There was water everywhere—pools into which cows waded, puddles reflecting autumn sky at dusk, and the saltmarshes—peaceful but not quite the refreshment needed and found when I stared into what might have been a mirror.  A woman with brown hair pulled back wearing a dress of severe cut the color of moss regarded me out of her own flat and featureless world.  She was standing with a young son whose expression was fiercely pure.  I didn’t have to read her name to know what had happened to her:  she had been betrayed, abandoned, sent back to the nature from whence she had come.  Exhaustion resignation dejection disgust.  “Hagar and Ishmael” I read. 

            The story is a simple and awful one.  God promised Abraham seed as numerous as the dust and stars, but at 86 he was still childless.  It was Sarai’s idea to put her own Egyptian maid, Hagar, to bed with her husband so that she could be a mother through her.  When Hagar conceived, Sarai began to harass her, and she fled.  God found her by a spring of water and told her to return.  She obeyed, delivered Ishmael, and stayed with the Abram and Sarai until they received “h”s for their names (h indicates God’s spirit) and a gift child, Isaac, for their legacy.  It took Hagar 14 years to leave, and she didn’t get the satisfaction of leaving on her own terms.  Once Isaac was born, Sarah would not countenance a rival.  Get rid of her, she demanded.  Abraham thought it unjust, but God told him to listen to Sarah’s voice.  He reluctantly sent Hagar with Ishmael with only a skin of water into the wilderness of Beersheba.
            Who is to blame?  Sarah is a bitch.  Abraham considers his responsibilities and may think of Hagar, his other wife, but, more likely, he regrets losing his eldest son, Ishmael.  Women counted for so little: he’d already given Sarai away twice.  But where is God in all of this?  Although he comes to Hagar’s rescue when the water runs out and both she and her son cry out in agony, it was God who allowed her to be exploited for 14 years.  His messenger that told her to return and suffer.  Like Hagar, I made efforts to get away, but I always returned.  Why?  What compelled me? 
            I cannot think about this story without feeling sick.  A Jewish therapist suggested we read the Bible to learn about “us,” and the Bible turned the key of my heart and became the means by which he exploited me, calling me Ruth and demanding I sacrifice all on the altar of Him.  Ultimately, however, he listened to his wife’s voice.  She read a few friendly emails about weekend chores, nesting wrens, and poems.  Picking up on the intimate tones, she became suspicious.  “Send her away.”  He sent back my things without so much as an apology and got on a plane for Israel.  “I’ll walk the via dolorosa thinking of you,” he said.  And I replied, “I no longer want to live in your mind except as a threatening voice.”  In a moment, Ruth became Hagar and Tamar.  I was through playing his games with religion.  At least Abraham, after he banished Hagar, was forced to endure his own version of her trial.  God told him to take Isaac to the top of a mountain and offer him as a burnt offering.  On that three day walk, Abraham must have thought about how Hagar felt walking into the wilderness, preparing to witness the almost certain death of her child once the water ran out.  God created a trial for Abraham that taught him about moral struggle by forcing him to walk in Hagar’s shoes.  My Jewish abuser went on a pleasure tour of Israel to feel blessed, no doubt, by his “chosen” status.

            At this juncture of my life, I am not interested in the male story—Abraham’s or S-----’s.  But I want to understand Hagar’s story because it is now mine.  In the painting by Henry Oliver Walker, Hagar’s eyelids are heavy.  The light gone from her eyes is a sure sign of abuse.  Hers is the face of a woman who has never been seen—a victim of the force that does not kill.  In her agony, however, someone does see her.  “Hagar, slavegirl of Sarai!  Where have you come from and where are you going?” God’s messenger called out when he spotted her pregnant form by a well.  The profundity of the question was lost on a woman who had no where to go and no place.  She was running from slavery.  Egypt was behind her, but the Pharaoh in Sarai and even in Abraham made her into an idol of fertility.  Unable to wait for God, the couple sexually exploited Hagar to build themselves up.  She was on the run from their mess, seeking her own liberation.  And what does God via the messenger tell her to do?  He sends her back to suffer more abuse—14 years more!  But he also makes her a promise: that she will be the mother of a great nation through Ishmael.  And Hagar recognizes the dual gifts of annunciation and covenant, and celebrates the giver by calling the Lord “El-Roi,” which translated means, “God who sees Me.”  At long last: she has been seen!  She is not alone!  She can return to slavery and suffer abuse because she has had the intimate experience that the unseen God sees her, is for her.  She marvels that she has been the recipient of this awesome experience (better than conception):  “did not I go on seeing here after He saw me?”  So close to G—and still alive, more alive perhaps than she had ever been.
            Walker’s painting illustrates Hagar’s response to her second expulsion (after the birth of Isaac).  Because his painted figures regard the spectator directly, I have to question my own response.  Standing before the picture, I occupy the position of either Abraham or El-Roi—a man who refused to see or the God who sees.  It is easiest to imagine Hagar looking, with shocked disbelief, at Abraham sending them off.  But it is also possible to imagine that has Hagar risen at the sound of the messenger’s voice—“Rise, lift up the lad and hold him by the hand”?—and is guiding her son toward the water that has miraculously appeared.  After Hagar gets up, the narrative tells us that “God opened her eyes and she saw a well of water.”  But, as I see it, the eyes of the woman in the painting are not yet opened.  They remain clouded with the bad and dead feelings that prevent my own eye beams from tangling with the rays that stream out of trees and flowers, ponds and faces.  She and I are folded up like flowers at dark, trying to conserve what life is left.  To see again, to live again, I, like Hagar need the experience of being seen.  This is my motive for writing.

            The catalogue of the Flint Institute's American art collection was on sale for $5.00.  I bought it so that I might gaze at my painting whenever I am overcome by loneliness.  But I also revisit the cool museum room to comfort Hagar in her sadness.  I am waiting for God to open my eyes so that I might see a well of water, fresh water, in Flint, Michigan.  That would be a miracle, right?  My sanctuary is the noon mass at St. Matthew’s downtown.  I duck into the cool incense-scented holy place just in time to hear the word of God voiced by prophets.  Ezekiel compares sinners to lost sheep that the lord wants to lead to good pastures on the mountain heights of Israel.  Elijah reassures the widow that the flour pot will not go empty and the cruze of oil not run dry.  But Elijah has moments of dejection, too.  Head between his legs on a mountaintop, he listens for God.  I have been listening hard.  Elijah learned that God was not in the wind, not in the earthquake, not in the fire, but in the still small voice. 
            In the panic of grief and anger, it is hard to listen.  However, when I remember to listen, moments have depth and resonance.  Standing in front of my painting, I hear my daughter speak her interpretation of Hagar’s face, “It’s the look of disapproval you give every boy who tries to flirt with me.”  I smile.  Yes, I see that.  “Don’t you mess with my daughter or you will have to answer to me.”  Two years ago, after I told a friend that this therapist raped me, she urged me to leave, “What would you tell a daughter?,” Amy asked me.”  Back then, I was all for him … under his spell, so it was impossible for me to cultivate a fiduciary relationship with my own self.  But now I am beginning to hear what I would and will say for my own daughter, myself, in a small, barely audible voice, “the word is very near unto thee: even in thy mouth, and in  thine heart, for to do it.”